Our commitment ceremony in Bacolod is fast approaching. And because I live here in England its a very daunting job to organize thru internet and phone calls. There are thousand of jobs I need to sort and I am a bit stressed with all of this..... I could not ask EAC to give me hand because he is so busy with his lectures too.
I was stuck in the internet all day shopping fo a bargain hotel accomodation for our guest... its hard to organize a celebration especially when this event will be in the other side of the globe.... we have about 14 guest coming from manila and 6 coming from abroad so at least that would be 10 rooms for 2 days.....my OMG we will be penniless after this....wahhhhhhhhhhhh... ..The caterers and the decors which I wanted. ...is costing me over my budget..... my friends offered to be my event oganizer are there to help but I want my own mark my own signature. Simple yet elegant. I dont want so much fru fru...so not us. Good Friend of ours offered her beach house so the venue's free. All I wanted is a simple white commitment ceremony with 50 of our closest friends and relatives. I did not realized that getting hitch is very stressful ... plus the fact that we are both guys just adds to the complications of this event. I have already send my balikabayan box full of our gift tokens for our guest and some other stuffs that we would be needing for this day... I even sent few bottles of champagne and bubblies which I find expensive in the Philippines... I hope the box will arrive soon enough.... tokens.

Today I am scheduled to go to london for my interview tommorrow for a job in in St. Barts....and I have decided not to go because I don't want to leave this place and the friends I have made over the years....but now I am questioning myself if I have made the right decision?I have lived here for eight years now and for over this years I have come to love the diversity of this place and the people in it. I am scared to be uprooted again not knowing where to start . Do I really need to move elsewhere? Do I really need a change of environment? Stockton is like an old shoes for me so comfortable so predictable. ... But London is the place full of oppurtunity especially for migrants like me...colourful, diverse,multicultural and above all best place to live if you like parties and nightlifes. I have this ambivalent feelings one part of me wanting to go and the other wanting to stay......